working on it....

Well dont I feel like a part of the connected world?

Created a facebook account thanks to my also "new worldy" connected friend Mr. Jamus lee. Figured he'd get a kick out of that. So then I find myself curious about my blog. A blog that I've neglected for quite sometime. Just about the same amount of time I neglected myspace. So why you ask...? Why would I fail to maintain my current internet connections, but increase the amount of connections I have....?? Its like adding more to a pot thats already boiling over..... I have no Idea. Maybe just trying to make myself feel alittle bit more connected the the world that is so much bigger then myself.Elementary my dear Watson.... Simple, basic, boredom..... Entertainment if you will.

Since I dont really believe that many people have seen this or that many people even know that this blog exist I feel that writing it it is somewhat personal. I suppose..... Either way I felt compelled to write today about nothing more then nonsense it self. As an update.. Im still doing my "soul-searching" conquest. I truely beleive that this will forever and a day be then story of my life. I will continue to pursue my own identity. As of recent I have found myself wondering what my life woudl be like if I were to travel.... I honestly think I could survive for a month tops on my credit cards and savings. However, I would be stupid to think that I could ever actually up root myself with as much shit as I have going on at this moment. I feel like I have too much on my plate. Or maybe its just that my stomach is full. Its alright tho I guess. Maybe my adventures are supposed to be delayed in life. Maybe I wasnt meant to be worldly... Or maybe I was just not at this moment. Its a nice thought tho. Eventually..... If its in my cards. I suppose my yearning for something greater then what I currently possess is my justification if you will for staying connected. Being on-line. Talking outlound on internet pages in the center of world wide web space. Non-sense really if you think about it. Unnecessary non-sense that seems to fufill a momentary need for benign adventure. I guess if you read this and for some reason I seem ungrateful Im not. I am truly thankful for the things I have, people I know and the person I am. I just wonder sometimes who I'd be or whom I'd know if I had taken another path. Or what if I changed my path... I'm curious about the people I might know or the person I may become. Again I emphasize that fact that I'm on a journey of soul-searching. So if you are reading these words and feel like I have gone in a complete circle of explaination or
justification---> I have. I feel the same.I do know that I am not alone tho. I do know that just 10 seconds ago a thousand people if not more said or thought soem of the same thoughts I just wrote. Matter of fact.... in the next 30 seconds another thousand will do it all over again. So in all my sanity I feel better... Or I at least feel like I'm apart of something bigger then myself. An idea bigger then myself. A theory or philosophy that I might be apart of.
Anyways, I'll close with that.... a bunch of uneditted non-sense.
Enjoy.