Better then the Mona Lisa

Hmm... I think to myself about what it is that I need to say... Well honestly the first thing that comes to mind about how long Walker lee has been around is holy sh**! I cant even believe he made it this far. I guess part of that is surprise at how I actually survived. But I thought for sure we would have broken him... I guess Ill give myself a pat on the back for that not happening.. yet... 10 weeks and 2 days. Hes almost 3 months old and my life is so different. Everything about it is different. Havent had a full night sleep in a little longer then the 3 month mark, but I truely dont mind it. I actually enjoy waking up with him... sometimes.... I guess you could consider it "bonding time". He has a pretty good sleep schedule tho... Every 4 to 5 hours and hes awake...Hungry! Its strange to me to feel soooo needed. Hes the most dependant person Ive ever know and I cant fault him for it at all.Tough life I tell him.. What a tough life. Oh and the most exciting part of my days now consist of poop--> Really. The more then better. :) Weird  I know.
Well this was the first week I went back to work (well at least for my permanent schedule).... Tueday thru Thursday.  You might say "oh thats not to bad", but let me tell you... Tuesday... the first day I had to drop him off... Brutal! It was almost as painful as birthing my him! I swear to god. Pretty sure he was just fine, but I cried so hard... I even made Ms. Shirley the daycare lady cry... Just because I was trying so hard to hold it together. My boss said to me probably the most encouraging words that have ever fallen from his mouth... "Lacey.... It will get better... I promise, but dear... It will never be easy". Wow I thought to myself... did he really just tell me something so profound..?? Never knew he had it in him. Lots of people have had kind words to say and of course I am thankful for them all....

Having a kid is like being in a club. Pretty sure... Pretty sure that every mother has this creepy, unspoken kinship... Pretty sure that even if our children are no where in site, we still find our selves sharing about the amazing little things we have at home or over in the car... We find ourselves pulling out our pocket books or cellphones, just to show and share how beautiful we think our little ones are. Honestly...  I start to laugh out loud when I realize that this is happening. The pregancy was very similiar. All pregnant women would notice you and it was as though we would share an entire conversation in one smile. SOOO bizarre the whole thing is. Unlike anthing I have ever done.
I find myself looking forward to everyday. As of late ever day is different.. Everday he shows us something new. Still waiting for the first giggle. Dont get me wrong.. I thinks hes laughed... Maybe, but I end up chalking it up to just some noise... It kills me now, that I take him to daycare... What if I miss it. What if Im not there for his first REAL giggle??! I would just ball... But you know...We do have to do what has to be done and Ill be the first to confess that them Huggies.... Those things are costly!

 I love his smile... Its the most beautiful thing Ive ever seen. Its big.. He has this incredible smile that stretches from ear to ear. Julia Roberts... Eat your damn heart out Lady! You aint got nothing on my boy.

Alright, its Friday and I get to start my weekend with my boy today. Couldnt be more excited. Getting pretty good at running earends with him. Not that I havent had my bouts so far, but trial and error right? Well anyways, Ill end it that note. Thanks to those of you who listen to me rant and rave and dont mind that I tend to run circles in conversation.

ciao